Very Sorry To A Person That Means A Lot To Me

Sorry that I didn't be a person that you wan me to be.
Sorry that I am always unable to make you happy.
Sorry that I have always make you to be sad with me.
Sorry that I until now I failed to change to how you wanted me to be.
Sorry that I am always so stressed about studies.
Sorry that I always make you worried about me.
Sorry that I couldn't make you happy no matter what I did.
Sorry that I can't do anything right.
Sorry that I ruined your mood to study.
Sorry that I am always such a sadist.
Sorry that I am always so unreasonable.
Sorry that I am always think about no one and only myself.

All I wanted to say is just very sorry. I really didn't wanna feel this way. But I couldn't stop myself from thinking it. As a result, you got so frustrated. I am sorry that it was me behind every little sadness that you have.

I know that I am just being emotional here. But I am now sad.
Sad for what I have failed to do.
Failed for what you expected me to be.

Maybe I just need sometime to think about why am I like that.
Maybe I am just like that.
Who knows.

I just wan you to be happy.
But that is the thing that i oftenly fail to give.

Only a few times, I can see your smile when your with me.

I am just sorry that I am being EMO right now. But thats how I really felt about myself.
I will promise to be better tomorrow. Good luck in your studies and smile always. And whatever I said above, its my fault. Never once did I blame you. Hoping you happy always.

<3 you always. Bye.

Global Warming

Lately, have you been feeling hot and experiencing hot weather, whereby you feel that your head is about to explode? This is because that the Earth temperature is rising very quickly due to global warming. If we do not control it now, it can get even worse. A very bad scenario that has happen is that the glaciers in Antartic and Artic is melting drastically causing sea level to rise.

Why does this happen? It is caused by the global warming. One of the utmost important cause is the mass deforestation that has been happening. People uses papers in their daily lives. Most of the times to keep important documents. As for us, teens, we keep school notes. Anyway, coming back to the topic, small time researcher, Dr. E.T. has found out that when schools are having exams, deforestation increases massively during this period. Why? Count it yourself! Each time, exam periods, 1 school need to use how many hundreds of thousands of papers perday for every student. NOT to say that how many schools there are in the world??!?!

Lately, I recieved messages saying that we should not have exams to save Mother Earth. Do you agree to this?

Anyway, the message goes like this,

It takes 15 trees to produce the amount of paper that we use in one exam.
Join us to save trees.
"SAY NO TO EXAMS"

And there was this particular person who said, boycott China for inventing exams in the first place, that now is causing our trees to die. :)

So, let's all together "SAY NO TO EXAMS'
AS EXAM IS EQUIVALENT TO STRESS AND PRESSURE!!



Reported by,
Dr. E.T.






LOL. JOKES. =.=!!!

Today is Saturday

HAHA. LMAO. ROFL. LMFAO! I have done doing all my work. Finally! Whole morning been doing it already. SO MANY! Since 7 am till now 1:19pm. Cool Right?
All the homeworks. Special thanks to the one and only:
MR. Lai.

Haha. Later, got dinner. Makan makan makan. My cousin's open house. At least can relax abit already. Now, after doing my homework. Feeling so sleepy.
Can anyone help me stay awake? :P
What do you guys do during the weekends?
I only tuition and more tuition. =_=

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Guys and Girls, (Pin, Wei Wei, Dardar)

Are we still going to City Square during Sport's Day de ma?
I wanna buy some novels and CD.
Please bincang and tell me hor. And call more people go!

Tomorrow is Saturday!

Finally! A holiday rest day for me. Which is tomorrow! No school! Can sleep late. So happy. Before this always wake up 6 am. 7 days a week. Tiring sia! Finally can sleep all i want! But, oh god, MR. ANGEL aka MR. LAI!! He so good sia. Give us so little homework!! Thank You Teacher!!! Love you so much sia!! So little homework. Accounts finally done!! So happy. Been doing it the whole week. LOL. Siaenz!! Been the whole week i haven't updated blog liao. Today rajinkan abit only.

BTW, Faeez! What war!! I also wanna see leh. So shiok de. O.o

Wei Wei, you so zhuai!!!! Put so many pictures of me!!! ARgh!!! Me wantan liao lar. See lar now. =_= Some more wan me belanja you har.

Oh Great!

Oh great! Test is around the corner. All stress will arise sooner or later. God. Help me. Oh my god. Scared getting bad results again. Anyway, today is kinda quite a moody day for me. Got no wish to study. Well, to me, everything is like so negative today. Don't know why. Haiz. At school, really haiz. Let's not talk about homeworks again yea. = =

"Nice" Sunday

Today is Sunday. Supposingly Sunday is a day of relaxation but i got 6 hours of god damn tuition. LOL 1st was Accounts. So many homework. Trying to do but its gonna take a long time. NO MORE PROCASTINATION. So, I gotta force myself to do work beginning tonight. If not, i will die of it! Darn it. Then it was BM tuition class. LOL. I was like day dreaming the whole time. Thinking whether should i sleep anot. In the end, i decided to be half awake. It was really tiring. Chemist was quite fun. Teacher likes to make jokes that makes us all laugh. (Although the way he shouts freaks me) But quite fun lar.

Then later, my cousin is going to Chingay at JB. I am sure they all gonna have lotsa fun. I did not go. Can anyone give me and answer to this question: Why didn't I go to Chingay?

The answer would be quite easy. Guess be4 you start scrolling down!















BECAUSE OF HOMEWORK. Duh!!!! Ain't it obvious!

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Plaza Pelangi's Popular Book Centre got no David Archuleta's album. =_= Regretted that i didn't buy it yesterday at CS. Kns. Haha.

Oh, ya! Faeez, do i have the rights to read Twilight?!?! :P Coz the other time i got scolded by u when i say i wanna read Twilight. T_T. LMAO.

My blog ends here. Gotta go shower. See ya all!


p/s About staying away from procastination, its only for this week. ;)

Whether I am Wrong or Being Misuderstood?

Siang, this post is mainly about what did i do at Faeez house. Well, so here we go.

On that day we went to faeez house, I got excited coz he got a xbox 360, so I got really in the mood to play. Agreeing that it was my fault, coz I keep pestering Faeez about the xbox. Maybe, little too much coz I little jakun 1st time playing mar. So that I know my mistake lar.

After that, you said i passed sarcastic remarks about his room, But anyway, I don't think I did. Why?
Coz I envy Faeez. His room, although small, but so cozy and got lotsa things. Seriously, I got no intention of saying that his room is small in a negative manner. His room is rather unique if you ask me, coz well, its nice having your own cozy room having all the technologies in it. Agree right. His room was a truly nice room! Damn it! Got so many interesting things!

Then, about the game parts, well, you said I snatched the controller to you. That part I don't quite remember well, but I think I just said it for the fun. I dont remember from snatching the controller for you. Anyway, maybe there are still some changes that are still not enough.

BUT I AM TRYING ALREADY :)
NO HARD FEELINGS.
JUST TELLING YOU WHAT WAS MY INTENTION ONLY AR!

Sweet Sweet Valentine's Day

Eyra hand-made it herself! So sweet...
Thanks for eveything you have done for me... Wo ai ni!

Today, was just a very special and meaningful day for me. 1st was early in the morning, I got gifts from a special someone. She had hand-made those gifts herself. I was very touched. I bought her a bouquet of Ferreros. She was equally suprised as I am.

Although the day seemed so perfect, suddenly, Eyra cried and well, everyone was like panicking. She broke a glass bottle, and like thinking she was getting all the bad luck. Breaking bottles dont symbolize anything only BREAKING MIRRORS. So, everyone tried their very best to cheer her up, as today is Valentine's. Don't ask about me. I did nothing :(

Soon, the 2nd thing is that, friendship problems are all solved. I am really happy, that you, Siang, has finally calmed down. Yes, we still remain as friends (: Anyway, we started to give out Valentine's Day gifts to the whole school. Well, it was a fun and enjoyable day in school.

School ended, and a group of us are planned to go CS and have some Valentine's fun. We went to Sizzling Stone Grill. The tomyam there was nice but too little (as you all know, i eat alot XD). I kept complaining NOT ENOUGH!!!! LMAO. Then we went around walking and some of us gotta go back early. Although the day seemed to pass so fast, I really enjoyed Valentine's year. AT LEAST, was better then last year. Zzzzz. Last year was just truly a sad Valentine's!

Specially For Siang

I try to understand what have you been through. Both of us are at mistakes. Anyway, i forgive you as you are still considered one of my best friends. Its a pity to end our years of friendship like that. Do you agree? I just hope you would cheer up again and well, I hope you would treat me as before. Guessing that you still have problems, I should give you time to calm down and settle it. Everyone really hopes you would be a happy Siang again. Don't just stress cause you entered Sn1. Sn1 is nothing but a name. We still treat you as a 'Siang' from last year. By the way, that apology really helped me felt better. Its cause that i am very vexed over this issue already. All of us are. Just that we hope you will be better. Any problems, you may come and find me. As a friend, i would help u. (:

p/s forgive and forget is what we do in friendships. Don't bear grudges.

Tiring and Worrying Day..

After blogging about the tags, its time for me to story tell about what happened today. Let's see.

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Well. Something MAJOR happened. Eyra got injured during PJ. And as you guys know who is Eyra to me right.. They played Bola Baling. Thats not so bad yet. I believed our class boy wouldn't play so rough towards girls. But there was a typical boy who got to passionated into the game and started playing it hard. =_= Too hard rather until he injured Eyra. What The F***! Boy injure Girl? That got me damn freaking pissed with him + worrying about Eyra. Got hit hard and was like couldn't even walk straight. So damn worried! During Biology class, her face looks listless and wasn't able to talk. Luckily, I got her friends to help her during the rest of the schooling day, and during Physics tuition. Thanks Lots, Friends!

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Faeez Faeez, Do you need my help to introduce HER to you? So you won't go sweating like today again. I was kinda suprised seeing you perspiring like mad today. :P. LOL. 1 thing that puzzles me is that how come you get the shivers whenever you see her. Haha. Anyway, you are a good and funny friend Faeez. Remember call me if you got go jogging eh!

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Back to sad story. Well, So many things has happened in class. C'mon lar guys. Last year already, why so many problems have to arise during the last year in school? I so totally agree with Faeez. Why can't we just have fun as the last year in this school. Better then everyday cold wars here and there. I prefer during Form 3 and Form 4 where everyone had so much fun rather then keep having conflicts in class. Haiz.

I got TAGGED!

Me, Tong kena tagged by my mei. So, I have to continue the chain or I will get struck by lightning ( but trying to believe that that won't happen to me >_<) LOL. I have to list out 16 things randomly about myself. Huh. Anyway, here goes nothing. I :-

1) am currently watching TV.
2) had not done Accounts homework and its gonna be Accounts tuition in two days!
3) always SMS some one special.
4) am always getting flu coz of nose sensitiveness.
5) am gonna have a happy Valentine's!!
6) got a scar on my hand. Ask me for more Info. :D
7) am currently blogging now at 9:29pm. :)
8) have used my phone for 3 years.
9) enjoy watching CSI.
10) I spent 25 minutes writing this post.
11) got nothing to much to say about myself.
12) am trying to change myself to be a better person.
12) found a dog by a road side.
13) signed up for DIGI Super Sms package. ROFL!
14) enjoys old English songs as well as new.
15) find 'Fall For You-Secondhand Serenade' quite meaningful.
16) crapped alot from 1 to 15, dont't I? HAHA

So, now i have done my part. You should start doing yours! After writing 16 things about yourself. Start tagging the rest of people in the minimum of 5 persons! Enjoy tagging.

See yas!

p/s. you are not to tag me back for something might happen!!

So Heart-Aching

Just think for a friend, who has been friends with you like almost 3 years. And suddenly everything gone up in smoke. He decided to give up the friendship. Its just so HEART-ACHING. You'll get what i mean when it really happens to you. You try your best to change, but still not enough. Trying to change but no one is there to point out your mistakes. Maybe, i am IMMATURE. But friendships all about being mature and immature? Trying to change liao. I know i always sorta like mementingkan diri sendiri. But trying to change. TRYING TO CHANGE. Tell me who can change their characters just overnight? You sure need sometimes right? I still remember this, a person told me ' we will give you time to change, maybe 1 year 1 month 1 week 1 day'. As long as you try to change. Anyway, I really puzzled what has overcomed you. But i am trying my very best to change already. I just refuse to give up this relationship which i took so long to build. Haiz.

Why So Many Conflicts? SADDENING

Todays like normal days, only that there are so many conflicts/ misuderstandings.
Haiz. Why can't be like old times where everyone was happy.
You guys may not wanna be friends anymore, but what can i do?
I tried to change, i apologised. But you are still mad at me. Giving me a cold shoulder. I tried to solve this, but you guys dont wanna. Then you said mood swings, but from what I can see, you treat the rest so much better then how you treat me. Why must have to be that way? Can't it be like old times? So much i tried to change, you still think its not enough. I don't really get it, but i wanna clear this up.


To a certain someone(If you read this, you know its you):

Even if you don't like me, do you have put on sarcastic marks on me?
Even if you don't like me, you should just tell me straight forwardly, i just wanna know why.
Do you need to hurt my feelings?
If you think i am a torn in your flesh, just tell me straight on.
Ignoring me everyday is going no where.
I really dont like misunderstandings. I just wanna clear it up. But haiz.
All i want is just to keep friends. Its just that simple.

Today Sucks 11 Feb

Today SUCKS. Everyone is kinda moody today. I dont know why. Kok Yuan in Physics lab doing our PEKA, non-stop VULGARITIES. Everyone was rather down.

Siang, hope you cheer up soon, my friend! I don't know why nowadays you seemed to give me the cold shoulder. And obviously you treat Faeez all so differently. How i wish the old days would come back.

Anyway, chemistry, I dont give a damn! So hard! My tuition wasnt even reaching there yet, and darn it. all subject in school is going so fast and yet tuition slow! Oh my god! Homework, like mountains man. accounts, not done yet. So many questions. My god!

Btw, Faeez, I guess you know I'm new right! So, I use ur blog as reference. LOL. But not stealing any ideas. No worries.

1st Day Blogging

Hi guys i am new. My first day and i kinda getting the rope on this blogging. Give me the detailed and specified meaning of BLOGGING? Anyone? T_T Desperate here. LMAO